Sir's Response

Sir read my post last night and sent me an immediate email (that I just saw). He does assign me to post in this journal once a week, so he must check to see if I'm following his rules. Topics have been at my discretion. Thus far, he's told me that he does enjoy reading it, and it helps him. He's never had such a reaction before, however.

His email was lengthy, and addressed much of my concerns. For some of it, I'm not quite sure how to respond. I'm not always sure what I want, just that I WANT - and that's a problem in itself. Sometimes I think I'm afraid to want. That it wouldn't be right (normal), that it wouldn't be up his alley, that it would be TOO vanilla. I worry too much.

Right now though, I think his response was right on target. I feel put in my place (in a wonderful way), and I feel as though he is taking things as seriously as I do. Its a double edged sword, having to keep me in line. I feel like there is more room for me to be the one "messing up" - but we're all human. No one is 100% all the time. But I respond well to attention and to being put in place.

And now, it's phone time with Sir, so I can tell HIM these things, more in depth. <3