Sir and I have realized over the years, that I definitely have a little side.
I don't know her exact age, but somewhere between 5-8 I think.
There are times where it's more pronounced than others.
But there is a time of day where it is pretty consistent. And that is bedtime.
Every night when we're getting ready for bed, I definitely feel little. Perhaps its that nighttime desire to be tucked in and cuddled. Perhaps a desire to feel safe before bed. Safe like a child, when life was simpler, and there was less to worry about.
Maybe it's nightly exhaustion removing some internal barriers.
I'm sure now, in listing an "age" there's some things there to unpack in therapy (my parents split when I was 7, so that being my age range... I'm sure that's linked somehow).
But I think I'm okay with it. Sometimes being little is confusing for me. But sometimes it really is nice to just... let everything go, and know I am safe with Sir. That he is going to take care of me, and everything is going to be okay until tomorrow.
