Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Anxiety... I hope

I've been feeling very odd for the past few days. Anxious. Heart racing. Palpitations. Random pains in my limbs. Pain in my chest (but not my heart). Tingles and numbness. Lightheadedness and dizziness. Not all day, but episodes throughout the day.

I've had panic attacks before; they started when I was 17. I'd have them off and on throughout my adult life. After my dad passed, they got pretty terrible. But they've waned a bit since then.

These aren't what I'd call "full blown" panic attacks. They're sort of like the feelings you get right before you have a full on panic session. But this has been going on for four days now, off and on.

Today, I was volunteering and I got very shaky and lightheaded. I ate my lunch early and that seemed to have helped. I am hypoglycemic, so I am often watching my food intake to make sure my blood sugar doesn't get too low. However, I had eaten my breakfast just about 2.5 hours before that episode. To get so shaky like that after having eating relatively recently is very abnormal for me. It happened again when I got home, about 2.5  hours after I had my late lunch.

I am hoping that I am having some kind of weird anxiety. But part of me is worried that it is something else. What exactly, I am not sure. My sugar issues switching on me, and being diabetic? Thyroid issues? Heart issues (what concerns me the most)? Something else I haven't/don't want to really think about yet?

I have a doctor's appointment in two weeks. I am hoping I can hold out until then. Obviously if the symptoms get worse or extreme, I'd go to the ER or Urgent Care, but right now that seems like overkill. But I'm scared, and it all ties in to my panic issues.

And I know it is scaring Sir. Yesterday, he was going to go gaming, but he chose to stay home so I didn't have to be alone. I felt awful. I don't want him to miss out on things because I can't get my feelings under control. On the other hand, I absolutely feel more secure knowing he is there. He seriously is my knight in shining armor, and knowing that he was willing to do that just for me... well I just want to jump all over him and hug him.

Hopefully this will pass, at least until my doctor's appointment.


2 comments:

  1. Ooh, anxiety sucks- I have spates of it myself, including panic attacks in the past. I'm so sorry you're dealing with it too. I try to go down my list of self-care thingies: eat something, drink water, rest/sleep, distract myself with a book/videogame/tv show, and if I feel like it- go out, get some sun, get some light exercise, go see my mum, etc. Most of the time that all works for me- if I still feel rough, I chalk it up to "coming down with a bug" or something and give it a few days. If it's feeling more acute, I get to the doc to get checked out. I know it's no fun to deal with that stuff, and hope it eases up for you soon. Also, it was sweet that your Sir stayed home with you- don't feel guilty, I'm sure he was glad to do it for you. Hope you feel better soon. *hugs*

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  2. I'm sorry you are going through this Lea and do understand you being concerned. I'm glad you have an appointment with the Doctor and hope you will then have peace of mind. Definitely don't hesitate to go to the ER though if you are that concerned or feel worse in the meantime.

    It was wonderful of your Sir to stay with you. I too am sure he wanted to be there for you too.

    Sending positive thoughts and hope you are feeling much better soon.

    Hugs
    Roz

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