Monday, April 23, 2012
His email was lengthy, and addressed much of my concerns. For some of it, I'm not quite sure how to respond. I'm not always sure what I want, just that I WANT - and that's a problem in itself. Sometimes I think I'm afraid to want. That it wouldn't be right (normal), that it wouldn't be up his alley, that it would be TOO vanilla. I worry too much.
Right now though, I think his response was right on target. I feel put in my place (in a wonderful way), and I feel as though he is taking things as seriously as I do. Its a double edged sword, having to keep me in line. I feel like there is more room for me to be the one "messing up" - but we're all human. No one is 100% all the time. But I respond well to attention and to being put in place.
And now, it's phone time with Sir, so I can tell HIM these things, more in depth. <3